13 months ago I got anxiety attacks while even looking at an airplane in the sky.
For someone that was more often on an airport than in a metro pre pandemic,
Experiencing these sensation was.. unknown.
Post pandemic, & after hitting corona pretty hard, shifts in my brain and body happened.
Looking at airplanes made me feel nauseous. I saw danger. I saw in safety. I felt scared.
During that time I went through a phase where I didn’t feel safe in my mind nor body.
Everything appeared to be a threat.
I saw danger everywhere.
My nervous system was constantly in fight, flight & freeze mode.
My mind was racing, stuck in loops of fears & what ifs.
Both my mind and body were in total survival mode, disconnected from each other.
Fast forward, here I am.
Calmest than I ve ever been. I look at planes in the sky & I feel awe.
I see adventure. I see people’s stories. I feel excitment.
In the plane, I am able to look out the window & admire the world.
Feeling so in awe. So at peace. So light.
What did I do?
I focused on..
..reesrablishing a safe mind body connection.
Reparent my inner child
Understanding how my body tries to protect me.
Rewire my brain & nervous system
Become a master in self.
Understanding each pattern, feeling each emotions, learning each cue from my body.
I had 2 choices in these moments.
Let fear take over & reduce travelling
Let my dreams & visions for my life take over & face my fears head on
I chose two. I took 20+ flight since then.
And through that I built resilience.
That kind of resilience that gives you the trust in yourself that you can handle any situation.
I broke through the scary voices in my head.
I broke through self sabotaging patterns.
I broke through survival mode, cultivating thriving mode.
That is what a big breakthrough is for me about.
The accumulation of daily tiny breakthroughs.
Just imagine how that would feel like for you.